Monday, September 28, 2015

i've been to the mountaintop

On Friday, I had the opportunity to attend an Honors Night Out through the CV honors program. That evening, I attended a play at the Dallas Theatre Center called "The Mountaintop." The play is 90 minutes long and the entirety of it takes place in a hotel room in Memphis where Dr. Martin Luther King stayed the night before his assassination. "The Mountaintop" was a fantastic play, and I really enjoyed it. It does an excellent job of humanizing Dr. King, portraying him not as the martyr that our history textbooks depict him as, but rather as a human being with real fears, vices, and vulnerabilities, just like the rest of us. I was pretty surprised by the plot twist that was revealed to us halfway through, as I didn't think the play would be taken in that direction; however, I think that really just added to the overall effect, and is what made it such a memorable experience. Also, I have to say- my favorite part was probably the actress who played Carrie Mae. She was really talented, and had the audience in stitches the entire way through. The play as a whole was hilarious, provocative, and emotionally compelling and sensitive. The speech made by the actor who played Dr. King, in which he implores the audience to "carry the baton" and not let it fall, had me in tears at the very end, because that message really resonated with me. It is up to each and every single one of us to stand up and make a difference in the world, rather than give in or sit passively. Whether that happens on a large or small scale is irrelevant; what matters most is that we never stay complacent and allow our strength, talent, and ability to go to waste.

That night, the cast of "The Mountaintop" received a well-deserved standing ovation. If I could go back and watch this play again, I honestly would. It's an experience that will stick with me for many years to come.

"We've got some difficult days ahead. But it really doesn't matter with me now, because I've been to the mountaintop." - Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

Tuesday, September 22, 2015

thoughts on discussion regarding normative behavior

Yesterday in class, our overarching discussion topic was normative behavior. We defined this term and tried to apply it to our understanding of the way our college campus functions, as well as to medicine. One of the points brought up was that by interacting with the gay community, Dr. Verghese himself would be seen as an "outlier" of sorts with respect to most everyone else, who preferred not to talk about AIDS and treated it as a "taboo" topic. This brought up the idea that physicians actually face various risks in medicine - physical, in terms of acquiring an infectious disease from a patient; emotional, in terms of the weight of having to deal with such emotionally heavy issues as losing a patient; and social, in terms of caring for a group of people who society have deemed as "outcasts." The last of these three can be seen throughout history, with diseases like leprosy and AIDS (which has often been referred to as the modern-day leprosy).

The emotional risks of being a physician are particularly important to consider. Often, the stress of work becomes too much for neurosurgeons or ER doctors to handle, and it is not uncommon to hear stories of physicians facing burnout and attempting to deal with it in various ways (some often destructive, such as self-medicating or becoming addicted to alcohol). I personally have heard stories of pediatric oncologists becoming depressed and contemplating suicide because of the young children they treat with terminal illnesses who cannot be saved. Even in specialties that are not always so high-stakes, no doctor ever forgets the first patient that they lost. It is something that stays with them and weighs upon their conscience for years and years to come. Thus, in this respect, I and my peers have chosen a difficult path. However, to me, the rewards outweigh the risks, and I'm fully prepared to face challenges along the way.

From that point, our discussion deviated from the risks doctors face to whether we, as students, are effectively prepared by our training to deal with them in the future. One of my classmates raised the question of whether our current education teaches us how to effectively and constructively deal with stress. When that deviated into a discussion about the various sociological and psychological concepts that we are required to know for the new MCAT, the professor asked us whether we believed it was really important for us to have to know the details of every theory in order to be a good physician. In response, one of my classmates argued that it isn't so much knowing the specific theories themselves as expanding our worldview and developing the critical thinking skills that are necessary to becoming a well-rounded and excellent physician. I agree with that - it's not really going to be essential for us as practicing physicians to know the difference between the nativist and interactionist theories of language acquisition, for example. However, having at least a passing knowledge of such concepts helps us understand human behavior and society on a larger scale, and that's definitely important to medical practice. On that note, I feel that the way this is tested on the MCAT is not necessarily indicative of one's true understanding of these concepts. Test scores are great and all, but on their own, they're really not indicative of a student's ability to be a good physician. They have to be complemented by other aspects of the application, like the personal statement or interview, where the student has a chance to really demonstrate their level of knowledge and thoughtfulness in considering the issues that are important to medicine today, like health disparities or the effect of racial stereotyping on the care that patients receive. These are not topics that can be assessed accurately by a multiple-choice exam, but are still essential and thus must be addressed in some other way.

Monday, September 21, 2015

examining the ethics of patient care

Last week, in class, we watched a documentary on the Lynchburg colony and the Virginia eugenics movement. This sparked a discussion afterwards in which we examined the various ethical issues surrounding forced sterilization and wrestled with the questions of "right vs. wrong" with respect to the actions of the politicians, doctors, and other authority figures who either created the program or participated in its implementation. However, we soon drifted away from the example of Lynchburg specifically and began to discuss ethics of patient care in general.

Recently in the news, there was a story of a 17-year old girl in Connecticut who was taken away from her parents and forced to undergo chemotherapy against her will. Cassandra C., who was diagnosed with Stage 3/4 Hodgkin's lymphoma, underwent a procedure to remove part of her lymph node. However, she firmly opposed chemotherapy. Even though she was still technically a minor, she was a clearly intelligent, well-spoken young lady who had done the research and had made an informed decision to refuse treatment. Her parents supported her decision. However, in spite of all this, the doctors got the state involved and made Cassandra a ward of the state, taking custody of her away from her mother and forcing her to undergo the chemotherapy that she was so strongly against.

I had never heard of this case until it was brought up in class that day, but I was honestly horrified. To think that physicians had taken this girl away from her family and forced her to undergo a procedure that she had clearly said "no" to... It made me lose faith in society, to a certain extent. In this case, it seems to me like a terrible abuse of power to do that. The fact that they even did so under alleged "parental medical neglect" just made it worse. As a future physician myself, I would do my utmost to respect the wishes of my patients, because it's their body and their right to decide what they want to do with it. Even though I'd be in a position of relative medical expertise, it wouldn't give me the right to do whatever I wanted to them. The principles of autonomy and social justice are absolutely central to medicine, and physicians must learn to wrestle with ethics, because it is almost certain that they will come across ethical dilemmas at least once in their career. I know that every ethical dilemma has a number of different angles, and there are always multiple perspectives and ways to look at them; moreover, every case is different. In Cassandra's case, I would say that the state had no right to force treatment. However, the boundary between acting in a patient's best interest and respecting their autonomy is not always clear, and that's what makes ethics in patient care such a complex issue.

I greatly enjoyed the discussion we had that day in class, and I hope I continue to have the opportunity to examine medical ethics in the future. It's a topic that I find really fascinating, and have strong opinions about.

an introduction, of sorts

This is my first entry in what I hope will be a journal that I update with relative frequency throughout the course of this semester (and beyond). I've tried my hand at doing these in the past, but I was never entirely consistent with them. However, this time, I'm starting this blog for two reasons: to practice my reflective writing skills, and to have a place where I can write down my thoughts regarding a variety of different things (e.g. a topic we discussed in class, a book or news article I read recently, a volunteer or clinical experience I had that I want to remember).

The idea for this came from my sociology professor this semester, who has asked each one of us to keep a journal and write in it periodically; we are expected to turn in these entries at the end of the semester, as part of the final exam. Even though it's technically for a class, though, in that way, I still hope that I can continue writing throughout this year and in future years. I think it would be a valuable resource to look back on several years down the road, when I'm in med school or residency, and see what was going through my head when I was a college student.